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[rebells]

Swift has logged 1k since I reapped him and exciting things have been happening and I am no longer dying of exchangemodwork so!!

This post is for:
- relationships!! possibly including dots because I love dots
- general questions/SOTU/what ifs/Swift's thoughts on a thing!
- HEART ROOMS I LOVE HEART ROOMS
- whatever else you can think of why not!!

GO WILD I honestly just want to babble.

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[rebells]

It hasn't really changed! One off because Swift is an emotional incompetent who has a hard time trusting people or telling them things . . . he does really, honestly, stupidly adore Zuko, though. I guess the easiest way to put it is he has just--accepted Zuko into his life, to be there and keep being there and push him and be affectionate and HOLD ONTO Swift in a way that few people get to do. Swift is someone who is used to being this shadowy, mysterious figure who comes and goes as he pleases and who no one really knows, and even in Aather, where it's a lot harder to be anonymous, in most of his conversations you see him . . . continually attempt to slip through people's grasps and make it hard for them to get a handle on the "real" Swift. (He doesn't always--o-or even necessarily often--succeed, but the amount of stuff he doesn't casually tell people about himself is astounding.) But he has an "inner circle," and Zuko has definitely cemented himself as part of that. It's why he told Zuko his name so easily--he sort of went, "well, I suppose you already know me."

Fun fact: if Zuko had an inventory he would be part of Swift's party!

He honestly admires Zuko and thinks of him as a really good person--probably as a bit more of a kind and accepting person than he really is, b-but that has to do with how he approaches friendship--he would always get exasperated when the subject came up because it is so blatantly obvious to him that Zuko is good; it shines through in almost every interaction they have. Part of that is also how accepting he has always been of Swift! Swift . . . really wants to matter to Zuko, and it scares him to all hell because he's not used to it and he hates being vulnerable, but at the same time it's clear that he does matter to Zuko, a lot, mostly because Zuko says as much basically every time they talk. Zuko has always supported him and been there for him, even though Swift knows he often makes it kind of difficult to be there for him, and he is continually touched by that and really, really wants to be a good friend in return. '^' T-there are a lot of feelings here.

THERE IS STUFF I DIDN'T REALLY TOUCH ON BUT UH YOU CAN ASK MORE OR GET ME TO ELABORATE ON THINGS??? ALSO REVERSE?

[tsunbender]

I'M SICK AND I SHOULD BE WRITING AN ESSAY SO IF THIS ISN'T UP TO PART, FORGIVE ME. ;w;

Zuko also admires Jay for different (and similar) reasons. To Zuko, nothing actually has changed in terms of how important Jay was to him. If anything, it only increased the longer he missed him all those IC months because he grew more comfortable with his feelings and how he felt about people. One of the reasons Zuko decided to stay around was to help Aather gain enough power for people in the book to get out, and he even talked about it at times, it was exclusively for Aang, Jay and Korra. IT WAS A SELFISH MOTIVATION because yeah, Zuko isn't as good as Jay thinks he is, because he feels he has bigger obligations at home and as much as he loves Ruby he doesn't want to help permanently in Aather.

Surprisingly enough, the person that knew exactly how to Zuko in terms of how to deal with his self-doubts and his memories was Jay. That helped Zuko to become fairly comfortable with him and it grew into a lot of respect for him and his opinions. He did find him difficult at times, but that improved with that, too. In general, Swift has helped Zuko a lot and Zuko is incredibly fond of him as a result.

. . . also, secretly Zuko wants Jay to leave and go home with him. But Fuuma and Kamui are also tentatively going to the Fire Nation as well so he's going to be very hesitant about bringing up the topic because WHAT IF JAY DOESN'T WANT THAT. But he thinks about it and it's what he wants. '^'

TELL ME ABOUT ALL THE OTHER FEELINGS. I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THEM.